I very much get in a habit—subtle, at first—of doing and exerting will. Yet I am much happier and more content when I accept the day and its troubles and let it unfold in front of me. Maybe not happier in the moment, but happier on the balance. It's a challenge, though, because the control worm turns slowly, and often I miss that it's happened. I get excited by the momentum of doing, spread myself rather thin, and then get very tired and wonder why.
I very much get in a habit—subtle, at first—of doing and exerting will. Yet I am much happier and more content when I accept the day and its troubles and let it unfold in front of me. Maybe not happier in the moment, but happier on the balance. It's a challenge, though, because the control worm turns slowly, and often I miss that it's happened. I get excited by the momentum of doing, spread myself rather thin, and then get very tired and wonder why.
The control worm - I like that terminology. I have a "do more" worm. You seem very aware of your tendencies which is at least half of the battle :)